Pre-warning I am slightly haggard and this might not make sense. If it don’t make no sense hope it makes you laugh anyways.
I wasn’t sure what to write for my second post. I think I maybe thought a little bit too much about it. Too much time and no deadline are not ideal for being proactive. This I have learned. So instead of thinking more I am just going to do. And right now seems like the idea time to do: hungover, hungry and dehydrated 10 hours into a journey home.
I am currently sitting in the Otaru train station after being in transit 10 hours (ten whole hours that is almost a day dude) with a few more to go. AND I just ate about 7 baked treats, a non baked treat and a sandwich…so I need something to take my mind off THAT LOL and the fact I have been waiting an hour and a half in this train station hahaha
I am not sure if I ate so much because I was hungry, hungover, dehydrated, tired, or sad. Lol. Real talk. I was in Tokyo this morning. I got home at 4am last night. (It was rogue and very unplanned….my friend and I went out for “only two drinks” I know right….legit because she said the “only two” she jinxed it and we ended having one of those 100 kind of drink nights hahaha) I said goodbye to that same good friend this morning before my flight. We have lived the past three months together seeing each other every day so that was hard. Let us be honest goodbyes suck. Unless they are to someone who sucks then they are good. Its sort of a scale of good to suck ratio really, as one goes up the other goes down. Anyways I have cried and also have not drank enough water. I still have another hour and a bit train. Then I am hoping there is a taxi at the station because it would be a few hour walk with my snowboard bag and that is sounding like a massive hell no go right now. I don’t know if that paragraph quite made sense but you get the gist (if not also case in point).
Funny enough last time I made this trip from Tokyo to Niseko I was also hungover (mildly still drunk honestly) which is a story for another time (:
I feel like crying right now. That is the truth. And I have had an amazing past week. But isn’t that the truth about life. You can feel more than one emotion at once. I am incredibly grateful and happy but also feel sad. I am excited to get back to Niseko and see all my friends and housemates but I feel anxiety about the many tasks I have to do once I am back. But the beautiful thing is that every emotion passes like clouds in the sky. So this will all pass. I just have to have the patience and strength to sit in the storm. The other beautiful thing is that I choose what I focus on. Which thoughts I let color my mind and day (:
So anyways now it is a few minutes later and I did not cry. Although were tears to come I would let them because it is so healthy to cry. It is a release of emotions and if you don’t cry when you have the need that energy stays stuck in your body to come out at a later time (and then you may be confused as to why you are upset when that time comes).
What was meant to be a post about my recently trip has turned into a small hungover tired rat rant about life and my current thoughts. Is that what blogs are for? It is today. Who says so? Me because its ma blog baby! As they say you really can do anything you set your mind to! And today my mind was set on getting my butt home and also writing a post. Good job me enjoy my lovely people!
Let us talk about how we chose how we react and the thoughts we give energy to. For instance today (est 2:30am) I lost my favourite hat. Was I sad? Yea, for half a second. Then I thought I have too many hats anyway its one less thing to carry around. Plus now I have room for a new hat should one come my way (:
As well today has been a long journey. Was I upset? No. I had many laughs with my dear friend. I wrote in my journal. I read. I am writing this. I organised some photos. Listened to a podcast and lots of music. Besides sitting on my backpack in a train for an hour and half (which mind you wasn’t bad just not as good as a chair so nevermind what I was going to say anyways).
I had a lot of time to reflect today. Being back in Tokyo after 3 months in Niseko and my recent trip to Hakuba felt odd in a way. Odd in a good way. I feel like such a different person. I have changed a lot. I have met so many different people and had so many different experiences. Some amazing and some difficult. But the difficult ones I am so grateful for because they were a catalyst for so much growth. They were the dirt that allowed the flower I now am to flourish and grow deep roots. (That thought is inspired by a reel my mom sent me today—shout out to my amazing mom! I love you mumma bear—-)
Life is so incredible. One day, one minute, one person; it can change your life forever. And to me that is so beautiful. And even when it doesn’t turn out as you planned (like this post) it can end up even more wonderful if you let your eyes see it! So cheers to hangovers and having too much fun and t3o eating 7 snacks because you didn’t have the willpower or braincells to choose just one!
May your day be full of beauty and at least one minute of feeling whatever emotion that comes up fully and completely. Blessings to you dear readers. Enjoy whatever today brings in however much it wasn’t what you may have hoped for! <3 :p